02.23.2001

Please just ignore me... I’m not even here... Tried to understand myself... hated every moment... Lost myself in the quest... for someone like me...

I tried to but I couldn’t leave the place that had been created for what I thought was a selfish act of preservation... I tried to but I couldn’t understand the reasons behind the ungodly things I was taught in Sunday school... I didn’t die but I might as well have never come down this path in life... Falling in love was a poor ambition that catered to a mind that was lost...

Thought that I loved you... just like everyone else... You created a need in me... to fill the void left behind... If I could be someone else... would you still love me?...

I tried not to but I couldn’t help myself to a slice of life with wine and cheese and some of those little... I lied to you when I told you that I liked it when you did that thing in that place that time wherever we were... I wanted to be with you... Wanted to be just like you... I just wanted you... Wanted you to...

I didn’t know what I was doing... to you... with you... No need to run... I will always be with you... But staying here... waiting... is killing me...

I wanted to buy the rights to endless love... No one wanted me to say anything... I’ll say anything you want me to... If only you’ll say anything to make me stay...