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As I entered the room, my eyes were immediately drawn to you. It was as if my dreams had finally taken form. The realization that destiny was upon me made my heart tighten with anxiety. The light danced around you like a halo and my heart skipped a beat. I wanted to speak of these feelings but I could barely breathe.

If I told you that I could love you forever, would you believe me? Would it save me from this? Or will I again become yet another soul lost in the dark avenues of your memory, trapped in the streets of this lonely city, with nothing to call my own?

I am enthralled with you but too terrified to act. Thoughts of future happiness do little to sway my fear of this volatile emotion. And yet it would be so simple to calm those fears just by touching you.

I could still be yours, you know. I could be anything you want me to be. If you would just say the words I’d be your prince in chains. Freedom is irrelevant. I have gained a world only at the cost of my soul. I am worthless even to myself. But here I am: I can do no other. But wait for the day of judgment. Perhaps when I am pure and sinless I can come back for you.