09.09.2000

The never-ending cycle of changes has not yet begun to slow down, but has remained, accelerated at a speed that has threatened to tear me apart. The burden of my world has already killed me, a weight I was unable to bear alone. My greatest comforts in life have turned against me, one by one, leaving me in this place of lukewarm feelings and hollow intentions. My love is stale while my heart has become cold. The motions made in the past now appear as mechanical reactions to feelings already lost...

She who was to be my salvation has instead become my doom. Each day brings a new pain, a new hurt. If only there were some way to erase these moments of instability, I would be with her forever. But already I feel like I have been martyred for little reason, save her own foolish games...

I can no longer see the light at the end of the tunnel. I have entered a world of darkness; I fear what lays ahead. I’m not strong enough to carry myself anymore, let alone this beautiful and innocent soul...