06.28.2000

A lone bullet... and yet I could’ve sworn I heard two shots fired in the deep of night while all of the world was asleep... it entered my skull but never touched my brain... A glorious shower rains blood and bone... the pain doubles over and again...

From the center of the wound I can feel the blood stirring... alive once more... No one can touch me here... in this space between reality and disorder...

A hand reaches out through the darkness to touch mine... Then, forgiveness... Silence... a peace so great that heaven itself could not compare... One hand outstretched, the other waiting patiently for me to lift myself up...

And when the end of the world came... I was unprepared for the changes that accompanied it... My senses opened to the most beautiful sights and sounds and smells... a rainbow of light danced around me... the music of angels in my ears... the tree of life spread out like a path before me... I could taste nirvana as it dripped onto my tongue and slid down my throat...

That moment was pure blissful serenity... I felt my body newly shaped... one rib carefully removed and my spirit given life... Above, a gentle and bright face shone down... And for the first time, I felt no fear of what might happen to me...